yes, i can see. but improving on the one suspect also makes you see the other in a better light.
so i guess you chose the right priorities.
and that empty comment should in no way be offensive. i really like that. in fact i find it attractive to see a girl, seemingly like a broken mirror of myself.
those that dance different, and are hard to conquer are the ones attracting me the most. but i think every girl is lovely if you know her secret skeletons in the closet. these vulnerabilities are what awakens the guardian in a man.
i gave up on painting, it killed me one time too often to stare in a girls eyes for days. still draw sometimes — but only for a little relief, so i drift into the abstract — which also makes it easier to capture someone without noticing.
your skills are truly amazing, and admirable