Shadowness - bengoodspeed Forgive nothing, for nothingness is heaven, not your enemy. Forgive nothing, for forgiveness is only the abandonment of justice, and justice is the f... en Shakespearean Existences <a href=""><img src="" /></a><br /> "3-31-97 This is a wierd time, wierd life, wierd existence. I think a lot. Think... Think... that's all my life is. I wonder how/when i got so fucked up... when Dylan got covered up by this entity containing Dylan's body... 4-15-97 existence is a great hall, life is one of the rooms, death is passing thru the doors Since existance has known, the 'fight' between good & evil has continued. Obviously, this fight can never end. If people looked at History, they would see what happens. 9-5-97 Goodbye all the crushes ive ever had, just shells.... images, no tu truths... BUT WHY? YeS, You can read this, why did god [incoherent scrawl] Ignorance is bliss desolation is knowledge martyrism is hope for others death is a reprieve people are alike i am different Id rather have nothing than be nothing 10-14-97 I'll give the phony shit up in a second. want TRUE love.... Awareness signs the warrant for suffering. 11-3-97 everyone moves up i always stayed. The meak are trampled on, the assholes prevail, the gods are decieving wanna die & be free w. my love... if she even exists. She probably hates me... finds a jock who treats her like shit. 2-2-98 The hall will never end. The love will always be here. zombies try to destroy what they don't understand the gods are slaves to the majority of zombies I hoped we could have been together... you seem a lot like me. Pensive, quiet, an observer, not wanting what is offered here (school, life, etc.) You almost seem lonely, like me. You probably have a boyfriend, though. 8-10-98 I understand that i can never ever be a zombie, even if i wanted to. the nature of my entity.. Soon we will live in the halcyons of our minds, the one thing that made me a god. 1-20-99 the pain multiplies infinitely. never stops. im here, STILL alone, still in pain. Im forever sorry about the pornos. the masturbation has stopped I'm sorry I LOVE YOU I will be free one day, in the land of purity & my happiness, I will have a love, someone who is me in a way. Someday... Possibly thru this life, maybe another, but it will happen... Love is more valuable than anything I know. I hate those who take it for granted. love is greater than life. My love will find me. She feels as i do right now, i can feel it. we will be inseperable. Her & i. we will be free, to explore the vast wonders of the stars... no limits. Nothing will stop us. I now know the final battle. the pain of humanity is our love... 4-15-99 the me, the one, can now control the pain, & it is done. 5 more days. These moments will be lost in the depressions & caverns of the human books, like, tears, in, pain, but the thoughts will be eternal. To explain the happiness is impossible. i cant stay thinking in a 2nd dimension, i go to the 5th! haha. 5 more days. 5 eternitys. he & i are concieved from ourselves. every night of the self-awareness journey, we are the nature of existence. the zombies were a test to see if our love was genuine. I love you, love. 4-19-99 One day. Its interesting, when im in my human form, knowing im going to die. Everything has a touch of triviality to it. like how none of this calculus shit matters. the way it shouldn't. In 26.4 hours ill be dead, & in happiness. HAHAHA, of course i will miss things. not really." Sun, 07 Jul 2013 19:11:23 -0400 Supermassive Black Hole NGC 4889 <a href=""><img src="" /></a><br /> Wed, 12 Jun 2013 09:17:03 -0400 Pineal Cones, Stars, Eternal Loneliness, & Overwhelming Insignificance <a href=""><img src="" /></a><br /> Wed, 12 Jun 2013 09:17:02 -0400 The Flood & Whale Songs <a href=""><img src="" /></a><br /> Mon, 10 Jun 2013 10:59:23 -0400 Conversations with Steven II - LCD Spirituality (Lowest Common Denominator) <a href=""><img src="" /></a><br /> Mon, 10 Jun 2013 10:59:22 -0400 Ego Games <a href=""><img src="" /></a><br /> Mon, 10 Jun 2013 10:59:21 -0400 (BOWL XV) New World 1606 <a href=""><img src="" /></a><br /> Mon, 10 Jun 2013 10:59:21 -0400 Galaxies Leave Lost Worlds in their Wake <a href=""><img src="" /></a><br /> Sun, 09 Jun 2013 04:43:01 -0400 Running from the Rain <a href=""><img src="" /></a><br /> Sun, 09 Jun 2013 04:43:01 -0400 The Last Tree <a href=""><img src="" /></a><br /> Sun, 09 Jun 2013 04:43:00 -0400