Shadowness - bengoodspeed http://shadowness.com Forgive nothing, for nothingness is heaven, not your enemy. en A Revolution for the Lonely http://shadowness.com/bengoodspeed/a-revolution-for-the-lonely <a href="http://shadowness.com/bengoodspeed/a-revolution-for-the-lonely"><img src="http://shadowness.com/file/item9/454244/image_t6.jpg" /></a><br /><i>Du auf dem Schulhof ich zum Töten bereit und keiner hier weiß von meiner Einsamkeit</i> http://facebook.com/godspeedart Sat, 27 Sep 2014 16:06:13 -0400 Devotion IV - A Memory, in Autumn http://shadowness.com/bengoodspeed/devotion-iv--a-memory-in-autumn <a href="http://shadowness.com/bengoodspeed/devotion-iv--a-memory-in-autumn"><img src="http://shadowness.com/file/item9/450843/image_t6.jpg" /></a><br />In the beginning, before the dirt and the earth circling planets, of the seasons and the days, there was love; only love was truth, and love was only true. We were as perfect counterparts in an unbreakable love and we knew that giving ourselves to each other was our only purpose and we would never need any other. In completion, there was no 'us' there was only god, and we were. Our love multiplied infinitely, down through unimaginable wells of existence breaking through layers of consciousness that you and I cannot even imagine, only to crack through and bottom out, world after world! and deeper and deeper into our perfect love, it would never stop. And we knew it would never stop, and could never be threatened. We would always be in love, and nothing would ever stop us. Our hearts are an infinite horizon, we cannot even bear it. But.. But we fell asleep. And like an atom.. we split, into humanity, and a universe appeared; The 'Big Bang'! A senseless attempt to entertain the idea that there was something of value out there, in the ocean of bodies and objects, other than love. devotion had become nothing more then a distant, ridiculous, incoherent dream. while the malevolent reason of promiscuity, fell into obscurity. And all the lonely souls were trampled, like dirt, in the struggle for power. "There is a solitude of space, A solitude of sea, A solitude of death, but these Society shall be, Compared with that profounder site, That polar privacy, A Soul admitted to Itself: Finite Infinity"; 'Singularity'! Stop looking, there is nothing out there. There never was, and there never will be. through the darkness of your soul, Dig! it's the hardest thing you'll ever do. All the images are so visceral and decieving threatening. distracting. graphic. corrupt. like everything everyone ever said, you know that's not the truth. Dig deeper.. what do you know inside is true..? could you believe in yourself, alone, for just one planck moment? and are you afraid of what you'll find? Why? We, alone, we desired love or death. So we abandoned the external world for the burden of the truth. rediscovered the real world at the bottom of our souls, and now we've seen it, reflected, in everything, and at long last, we know.. Your devotion, poor soul, can never be forgotten. Everything in this world is a lie. Love will be remembered again. "Through the remainder of my earthly existence... into my eventual, spiritual, eternal escape... where my spirit will neither remember, let alone bare the scars of this tattered, to-be-deceased, corporeal imprisonment" -Steven Mon, 08 Sep 2014 18:40:08 -0400 Nobody http://shadowness.com/bengoodspeed/nobody <a href="http://shadowness.com/bengoodspeed/nobody"><img src="http://shadowness.com/file/item9/445169/image_t6.jpg" /></a><br />http://facebook.com/godspeedart Sat, 09 Aug 2014 01:12:35 -0400 Devotion III - II - One Planck Moment Before Birth http://shadowness.com/bengoodspeed/devotion-iii--ii--one-planck-moment-before-birth <a href="http://shadowness.com/bengoodspeed/devotion-iii--ii--one-planck-moment-before-birth"><img src="http://shadowness.com/file/item9/443553/image_t6.jpg" /></a><br />https://www.facebook.com/GodspeedArt Wed, 30 Jul 2014 15:54:42 -0400 The Pain of Humanity is our Love http://shadowness.com/bengoodspeed/the-pain-of-humanity-is-our-love <a href="http://shadowness.com/bengoodspeed/the-pain-of-humanity-is-our-love"><img src="http://shadowness.com/file/item9/441591/image_t6.jpg" /></a><br />http://facebook.com/godspeedart Sun, 20 Jul 2014 00:13:29 -0400 Devotion III http://shadowness.com/bengoodspeed/devotion-iii-2 <a href="http://shadowness.com/bengoodspeed/devotion-iii-2"><img src="http://shadowness.com/file/item9/439260/image_t6.jpg" /></a><br /> facebook.com/godspeedart for who, I always wanted-- without the burden of outside influence to direct it, the body simply curls up - an instinctual reaction, to trauma, when no longer the brain can cope with the outside environment, and begins to shut down. the natural state; fetal. naked. safe. withdrawn. alone. towards the love that will always exist. internally. eternally. could you tell me, what does it mean? And do they even know? And could they tell me, all these years, how many tears I have cried? And how many times I have wanted to just lay down and die? would they forsake heaven for the love-- this love I feel inside? And could they tell me, how many times, have I? cast out, excommunicated. like heretics and pariahs. You, and I. waiting for someone to absolve us like we're worth too much, to be touched in this useless, revolting goddamn world. Here, where we are strangers, and they call people like you and I insecure because they've never even known what it means to love. just souls, to wield, As power. and they'll take, and take.... The machines they built, transmitting images of decay; homogenous plastic cadavers and cosmetic smiles the harvesting of a soul's value, a human's affection, for power like a competition to destroy the only thing worth anything on this rotting, disgusting mannequin planet. And you, And I; Our depression is the knowledge that we were meant for so much more and the distance we feel inside. We are ALIENS YOU! and I! withered, powerless. cold. pale flesh, broken bones, growing old. waiting for the eternal mother, to come around, take us home! orphans, the bastard children, perched on a dock.. in an obscure corner of the universe.. waiting for a ship, that will never come. And Why?-- WHY did she leave us here, on our own.. just to die? without an answer, without even knowing why? So they could take and take, until there's nothing left? Did she just leave us, in this, for the worms and dirt, lost innocence? And you, Oh, but you.. the gentle one in the corner, alone too fragile to exist too silent, to be known. extra terrestrial from the stars, have you come to take me home? I wanted you. How I wanted you. life preserver, in the endless sea of nothing. The eternal, everlasting, unattainable romance. Sun, 06 Jul 2014 23:14:36 -0400 Interstellar Sentinel http://shadowness.com/bengoodspeed/interstellar-sentinel-2 <a href="http://shadowness.com/bengoodspeed/interstellar-sentinel-2"><img src="http://shadowness.com/file/item9/432256/image_t6.jpg" /></a><br />http://facebook.com/godspeedart Wed, 28 May 2014 06:30:05 -0400 The Disarmament of Dylan Klebold http://shadowness.com/bengoodspeed/the-disarmament-of-dylan-klebold <a href="http://shadowness.com/bengoodspeed/the-disarmament-of-dylan-klebold"><img src="http://shadowness.com/file/item9/432254/image_t6.jpg" /></a><br />http://facebook.com/godspeedart Wed, 28 May 2014 06:30:04 -0400 Letting Go of the Body http://shadowness.com/bengoodspeed/letting-go-of-the-body-2 <a href="http://shadowness.com/bengoodspeed/letting-go-of-the-body-2"><img src="http://shadowness.com/file/item9/432255/image_t6.jpg" /></a><br />http://facebook.com/godspeedart Wed, 28 May 2014 06:30:04 -0400 Scabs That Will Never Heal http://shadowness.com/bengoodspeed/scabs-that-will-never-heal <a href="http://shadowness.com/bengoodspeed/scabs-that-will-never-heal"><img src="http://shadowness.com/file/item9/432051/image_t6.jpg" /></a><br />http://facebook.com/godspeedart Tue, 27 May 2014 06:14:36 -0400