*Idea 1: She talks and talks but her words are empty. She knows this, but she continues talking; she is afraid that if she stops, everyone will find out that she is a fraud.
**Idea 2: (Quoted from 5 cm per second movie) Without understanding the sources from which this menacing thought surged forth from, I continued working. When I at last noticed, my heart had already become hard from the gradual loss of its youthful vitality. And on a certain morning, when I at last came to an earnest realization that I had lost everything that was beautiful, I knew I was at my limits and quit the company.