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Novid - FireBrand
One of my Radio Shows Im Planning - and the logo for it -

Novid - Doga Queen (Semi Final)
I didnt get a Good Logo for one section of my site but this is pretty close:

Novid - Cartoon Electro
The New Site, Bring back the Bite in Animation and Cartoons - Its the Jolt you miss when you see the funny bit to the flashing eye.

Novid - Toon Angel
This is Toon Angel... The North American side of the Industry. Some forget, but I havent

Novid - VQueen 2
This is another version of VQueen...

Novid - Doga Queen
Doga Queen Is Something about the beauty of the artform...But there are some rules in order to keep it clean...

Novid - VQueen
A future anime section of Garou Gothic... This will hopfully end some of the lies and misconseptions...

Novid - Playstation Zigest
This is for a future section of Garou Gothic, its for the the Playstation Family of Products...and the games....

Novid - The Logo
Something I Did Back some time ago with Cs3 - Some work needs to be done but Im a little crushed for time...

Novid - The World Broken Apart
I have fought so long to have the world view of America.

To be Conservative and raise my children in a good Christian household.

To have freedom to drive any car I want...

To say what I feel about certain things about how silly our petty problems are in the whole scheme of things.

But now I cant say these things.

I cant have these things...

I cant be with the one i know...

The world has finally got me where they wanted me...

Broken, destroyed, a boot stomping on the face of humanity forever.

The world has got me where they want me.

Between Sin and Insanity...

What to do when you have nothing but sweet demon sickness dripping in the mouths of most every girl in the Ghettos of this country...

And the Insanity of our leaders, spending, spending and spending us into a deep morass, waiting to pass laws making us political prisoners...

They haven't taken the last things that make us human, but then again they just about to...

They delay the game that had to end.

They wait until things seem to bend the wrong way from them...

Then its over...they take it away.

Create this robotronic generic humanoid and call it human...

They sing the death rattles, they make things not what they seem.

They lie to our faces and now...

Im looking to the world through the stars and wonder why, why cant I.

I smell the zombie rain... patting the same way, making the Earth grow hotter...

Making humanity into a animal in heat, taking the souls away of the innocent. Nothing will stop them, nothing will satficy them until they kill the victim and themselves in a orgy of blood, sinew and seed...

The hearts of men grow cold as they steal your money...your votes (American Idol too) and they eat cake as the Occident (The name of the western world) burns in pieces.

Now they have stolen from me. The only way to have a life. The only way to have freedom they stole it years ago and I cant get it back... broken in and now no more... no more perfect. No more diamond...

Just like the rest of humanity.

What if it was all for nought? What then?

Will I have the strength to build my self up again? Face the world again?

I feel its too late...

I feel that the ghetto has become the whole world...

I cant get out of the death, the pain the whole nonsense...

I don't want to be generic.

I want to be free.

But I cant have that because my mind is stuck of having that wife, those kids that house our life's that future...

Now it will never happen...

Im breaking down into the pieces i was just 8 years ago. It's like nothing has changed...

I wonder...

How long before the dark world that I saw becomes the reality that the world is forcing me to enter...

There is nothing left - theres no truth...unless its from them...

But maybe... There is something inside of me... something that never went away...but I kept it hidden...

Maybe the monster in my heart that I feared all this time...

Was the only thing that will get me out of this hell created by sicker men and even sicker Governments.

Maybe the only way to get what I want...

Its to unleash my heart of chaos...

For if the world has denied me my hope of a brighter future for me...

I will bring the world that takes and takes and takes and never gives back to its knees.

I'm in the shadowness...

And Im against the world...

For my child's blood is in the worlds hands.

The people of the lie... and refused to live...

I will let them die in their insanity...

For they let me die in there filth...

All I wanted was to be a husband to a wife that carried herself like royalty...

All the world will get from me, is my fist in your lies and deceit.

For my word's are the Death Note...

And your reactions will be the Symphony Of Destruction...

Novid - Rebirth In the Time of Death
(Note, Picture is done by Giovanni Rubaltell and is called Rebirth (a preisous name or smile)

So, I hear that 8 is on its way.

I am happy to hear this. While others are too busy hanging on to past glories, things hear keep changing for the better.

I say about rebirth is to go ahead for it. Many people are scared because of it. I say its a long time coming.

People worry too much about certain things that they cannot control. And they things they do? Others muck up the message that was trying to be conveyed.

Years ago, I was here. Talking about things that needed to make sense. Today I know three things are going down.

One, we were never allowed to grow (not up because Growing Up is something we did way earlier in life and was forced upon us).

Two, our connections to the past are being ripped to shreds wether from animation, to sports and the like. And that leaves the present ever more important but even that is a misnomer because we have been taught never to live in the present and it takes a good long while to do so...

Three is that we are left in a world (or at least a nation or nations) with people too primal and animalistic (read as using laws to cover unjust acts and lawbreaking when it comes to overall society) that when even a simple act of complaint turns into a joke to some, a worry to others and plan to turn over sociality into the whims of what did "work in the past" from the people who are making the complaints.

All this leads into leading the culture to the debasement of Miss Cyrus (which Mr Foxx was correct in his assertions but incorrect in how he went about saying such things, forcing him to apologize and retracting what ever he said was true) and the Generic Life Style that both the left and the right want for this country.

But what they both do not get is that same Generic Life Style, lead into the disasters of Katrina/Gulf Coast and Iowa, The Housing/Derivatives Bubble of 2007/2008 and the mishandling of recruitment, tactics, and exception of the conflicts/Police Action of Iraq and Afghanistan. Because the mainstream media did not do their jobs (or at least tried to) when it came to the latter, the hid the real tragedies of both Katrina and didn't even talk about Iowa City - it was only a matter of time before they would mishandle the economic situation on all sides not just left or right.

This site isn't about that Generic Life Style. There are rules yes. There has to be. But this place isnt about why this celeb got dumped, court orders and all those things the industry worries about.

It is showing the mirror of life. And many times this decade, that mirror wasn't pretty at all. Remember, I was a reviewer(somewhat) here during the 6th version of Shadowness and I enjoyed it. I felt I was actually good at it. If i get the chance to do it again on the 8th version Ill jump at the chance. I wasn't here to belittle people. I felt that I was doing was Jerry Beck and Amid Amidi was doing on a smaller scale - teaching and showcasing what works. Granted, I haven't been on the photoshop/illustrator game in a while (and BOY, a lot has changed.) but i'm thinking I have to do more with it.

Because i feel its is time to go back to doing the web-mastering thing again with Garou Gothic, and this time around Im not letting up.

My biggest problem is the cash issue. Do i really want to spend thousands of bucks for my dream? Because my dream is that this new version of GG will put the Journal Ideas, the cartoon electro site, the two new ideas i have plus a new radio show and video/Blu-Ray journals as well as the books im writing into this one site. Sounds big? It has to be. But that doesn't mean I leave here. I never left even when the site was down. Its not me to leave something that has kept me grounded for so long. Other people do, but that was never me. Im hear for the long haul regardless of Garou Gothic comes back or not.

But GG has to come back. Because I cant stay idle despite how bad the economic situation is getting. There is a DEEP hole created by the end of Toonami - the end of CN (as we knew it) the Anime Correction the Crunchyroll pirate situ and the lack of coverage (common, Cartoon Brew and the HUNDREDS of animation blogs and countless twitters, cant do it all) of the american art and animation world that it needs to come back. I dont think Toonzone will ever do the job I used to do.

I dont think that John K will ever get respected in the Media as much has Seth MacFarline is (yes, even Fox Loves him more than Joss and Seth has almost sued Fox twice) and the way its going it would be a smart idea to get a feel for Latin America (some sites dont even talk about it because its OMG Soclisim and what not) Animation world view.

But I have ideas as well. I think is time for a compeiter to do something between Streamline Pictures and 4Kids - take the very good and leave the "bad" that will promote american content as well, that will work within the TV business - something that knows what it does and does it well. Uses Blu-Ray as a sticking point. Folks it can happen even in bad times. Great things have happen in bad times. That is the promise of what a nation like this produces. If we take the risk now, years later things will get on track and you will see things that you cant imagine.

But things start here. In this place. What needs to continue of the spirit of rebellion. And not the ones that wants a President dead, or a race of people to be destroyed over there "daughters" protection or all sorts of sillyness. No, its to show those who wish not to lose their souls, not to lose their connection to the past...

That you are NOT the person that wants to make the Earth into a Dead Ball In the Universe.

That YOU are NOT the person that LOST the WILL TO LIVE like others have...

That you will at the very least give the common curtacy to let people be no matter what defensive or other hatred you have against their skin, or sex legitimate or otherwise.

At least we can at peace with the works of these fine artists. At least we can look at these works and say humanity isn't that far gone.

Thats all one asks in this "dying" civilization. That at least we can grow and mature when the rest of the world doesnt want to.

Novid - Goddess of the Dark World, and their minions
Note: This was originally posted by a Michael Goodspeed on his blog. But it was one of his best essays i wanted to post it here: (Original Title is called Classroom Sex, The Goddess and Her Devotees)

[i]Authors note: The following essay features frank and adult language. Please do not presume to know my intentions without careful and sober consideration. Your discretion is advised.

The other day, I was watching one of those TV shows that's done in the style and format of a news broadcast. I refuse to call it news, because despite the best efforts of the Hearst Corporation, Time Warner and Rupert Murdoch, in my mind that word still connotes something truer and more dignified than militaristic propaganda or salacious entertainment. Instead I'll call what it was -- a spiffy 60-minute production that produced in me an erection and the firm conviction that I require at least three more prescription drugs in order to continue walking and breathing.

Some grinning blockhead named Matt Lauer was interviewing a woman named Debra Lafave, a drop-dead "hittable" blond high school teacher with the rack of Jane Russell and the lips of Marilyn Monroe. She looked and sounded almost identical to another woman who appeared on the show, Paris Hilton. Something else they had in common -- they had both recently been convicted of crimes. Lafave pleaded guilty to having sex with a 14-year old student. While Hilton was convicted of being Paris Hilton -- a personification that entails constant drunkenness, insatiable nymphomania, and every imaginable form of social irresponsibility.

Even though Hilton enjoys the privileged benefits of personal trainers, manicurists, and every other perquisite of the rich and abominable, I found Lafave more attractive than Hilton in every way imaginable. And I'm not alone in my feelings; Lafave is a goddess in the eyes of venereal males everywhere. And her behavior is part of a trend in the United States -- female teachers who are married or single, ugly or pretty, fat or thin, childless or parental screwing their male students seven ways from Sunday.

Glorified game-show hosts like Matt Lauer pretend to be mystified as to why this trend is occurring. But there are no mysteries here. There is only either the honesty and willingness to see, or the determination to remain blind.

The average woman reaches the apex of her sexual ripeness at the age of 43. Her libido increases for decades after puberty, along with her overall sensuousness and pleasure-giving abilities. She improves like a fine wine, until she peaks, and slowly declines. For males, sexual maturation is more like a Mexican firework -- it explodes spectacularly and kills dozens of bystanders, then immediately flares out and begins to die. But it takes forever to die; it just sits there stupidly burning and billowing smoke.

Everyday all around the world millions of blue-balled teenage boys sit trapped in classrooms with eminently desirable and blazingly horny schoolmarms. What lunatic social engineer contrived to place these volatile compounds in such dangerous proximity to one another? Imagine the relief both parties must feel when the fires of their loins are briefly extinguished in the blessed aftermath of a sexual explosion.

We grown men hear of Debra LeFavre and countless others like her, and we have no choice but to flee to the bathroom and frantically masturbate. We can't help but imagine what it would have been like to have been that boy. In a way, it's reverse pedophilia. We think, Yes teacher, please defile me in the most exquisitely satanic and bestial manner. When we hear of male teachers having sex with female students, we might fantasize about that too. But sometimes we have the decency to feel guilty about it. Not because society tells us to, but because the vicarious roles have been reversed. And we imagine how we would feel if some ignominious fiend like ourselves had laid his hands on our daughter or granddaughter. Is this hypocrisy? I don't know, but I do know, like all male beasts, that I wish I had had a teacher precisely like Debra Lafave when I was 14.

When Debra Lafave walked the floors of her classroom, she felt the lascivious eyes of every pubescent young man, these eyes burning her flesh and caressing her clit. She was beautiful and she knew it. And she felt her power over her students, even more than the power of a dominatrix over a submissive. But the power of a goddess. She was more than Paris Hilton, or Angelina Jolie, or any of those soulless, silicone beasts that have come to permeate our entire lives. She was Aphrodite. And her blazing mane was her wet and inflamed cunt. Its flames danced and teased at the heads of all below her. And for one chosen -- and many would say lucky young man -- the conflagration enveloped him, perhaps coming close to incinerating his being. But in all likelihood, doing him no harm.

But this is not to say that Lafave's actions were more right than wrong or more sane than insane. Even if we dismiss all moralistic interpretations of grown women having sex with pubescent males, the fact remains that the female pedophile's motivations and desires are similar to those of the male pedophile. They're not looking for relationships based on mutual love, affection, and equal responsibility. A pedophile has no more interest in those things than a bloodsucking vampire. What the pedophile seeks is the godlike thrill that comes from controlling, enslaving, and even destroying another human being.

We are a generation of men who are programmed to worship at the altars of porcelain mannequins and inflatable sex dolls. Little girls in the United States are instantly aware of this perverse, collective idolatry by male beasts. They sense the energy field coursing through the air around their skin. And they know that in order to absorb this stream, they must become ideal capacitors for its electromagnetic frequencies. This means transforming themselves into objects of worship and obsession. Billions of human beings pray to the very gods before whom they tremble in fear and want and pitiful desperate aching privation. One need not love a god in order to hand one's soul to it.

Debra Lafave's husband may have loved her, but he did not worship her. She could never arouse in him the wonders of terror and joyousness and transcendent excitation that she so easily evoked in her teenage lover. And the taboo of it all only made it more enticing. No one who has inherited the power of a god can easily walk away from it. Power is more addictive than love. Because it, like a drug, inflates and elevates us into strange and unpredictable stratospheres, but can never keep us permanently afloat. It can never provide any lasting satisfaction.

This is not a simple matter of predator vs. prey, or evil vs. good. We live in a society of revoked and disempowered human beings. No real control over our lives, at least not in any sense that matters. No control of our government, or any of the institutions that shape the direction of the culture. Limited ability to truly make life better for ourselves, and our loved ones. In the absence of genuine personal power, human beings are reduced to begging animals. And the idol to whom they beg is either an external god, or the god of their own egos. And neither can ever succeed in giving them what they really want.

Debra Lafave wanted to be Aphrodite, or at least Paris Hilton. Instead, she'll have to settle for being Debra Lafave -- similar to so many other 21st century Americans in ways that hurt and maim. Social deviants and outcasts with no families or careers or even a country to call their own.[/i]

Novid - Broken Souls, Not Allowed.
Folks, I know i haven't been here in a while but I just want to take some time and speak about what has been going on these days.

If you haven't read my new series called: "The Era Of The Lost and Generic" i suggest you do. Its something I have had in my head for years now. Its finally here so read it if you can get the chance.

I dont think people really understand what is going on, but let me make it clear. People have continued to deny to themselves something was wrong. The thing is that no one has had the will nor the ideas to deal with it. Its easy (well mostly easy) to get all the tools for "survival". Guns, Food, Bibles the whole lot.

But what I been seeing is that the America that thought it was America and acted like it was America, is soon heading to pass and it will not have happy ending.

I feel as though people might just go plum insane. My sister has. Not to get too deep into it but boy... it has been a difficult three days.

But isn't strange? That most of us are psychologically childish and those that are not are told that they don't belong in Society. Its almost a sight to behold - an art form to some dark mirror that most don't want to deal with.

Explain to me when one suggested to rest the mind, they think 2 week vacation instead of 15 - 30 min of staying still and not doing a damn thing? Humanity has a lot to account for, and a lot to fix and all it wants to do is to escape to what? Huluwood? Musak? WII would like to play?

The sadness that our generation has seen is now being paid in full. We could lose everything we hold dear.

All because we didn't allow the broken soul to speak.

The People that Lost the Will to Live, made it so. And thats why we are heading to the place where, The earth will be...

A Dead Ball in the Universe.

Novid - Hulu Blows Even More
Originally Posted on Cartoon Electro...

Hulu, you were a hot mess before, now your a hotter tranny mess.

That was not a good message to send. Using the Alien motif? Shrinking your brains? Lord.

And the fact that shill boy of the liberals 2000 cant act for shit…and all of the blatant symbolism? You take me for some idiots?

Its almost like people like us folk are being ripped to shreds. This particular Hulu advertisement is pretty much saying - be generic, we are about to control everything…

So its not just Crunchyroll that reeks, its now its Mainstream counterpart Hulu… One industry is going to suffer so it can succeed in a lifeless amorous blob called the Internet?

Heh. I deal with these idiots all the damn time. And you wonder why, why they are aiming for the Video Game industry.

Its so easy to do a simple advertisement, just look at cars.com and the like.

These are the reasons why I dislike the media. They promote the way the Japanese promote in this modern era - they are in cahoots with each other and if you dont believe me look how they treated Sarah Palin (even though I don’t like her personally) and how the almost through there own sheer will railroaded Obama in (see The View Interview with John Zigler) In which he may have become President on his own merit without the medias help…

So folks, there’s the reason why Hulu now really really sucks. Its just like Crunchyroll is for the weeboos, a grave site for the mass culture.

I was looking at an episode of Divorce Court - the last few min and Judge Toler stated something that just stuck with me. There is no such thing as manhood anymore because everything that is considered to be about manhood in this era is destructive and she wonders if its over.

Miss Toler, in my opinion it has been over since the days of the e/i act, since the days before all this. You cannot have a society that is based on hyprocey on all levels and all sides before it falls and topples upon themselves.

You cannot, and you said you would not even try to solve the problem. That is the right answer because you cannot stop what is pretty much what hulu says what they are going to do - create a new mass culture just like Youtube and or Crunchyroll, who has no respect - no tact and no sense of MODERATION in ones life. To expand it a little further, there are certain men who cannot and possibly should not be married, you cannot force them to - you cannot arrange a marriage to make them give a damn about the woman or her kids. He will just do what he had continued to do, damn the law, damn everyone else - except the culture that BROUGHT that particular person up. That is his realm of influence.

You know what, It doesn’t matter because i cant stop them from getting females pregnant out of wedlock, and having a society already anti-human (read as anti-feminine or female) putting even more phycological damage on females already damage from the huluwood/crunchyroll/youtube media. I cant stop them from being fools. I cant stop my sister dating some guy who isnt trustworthy.

No, i let them be. Because its better to watch what they do - and how they self-mutilate themselves over nonsense. And to take the point further - We don’t have to tolerate a god damn thing (if you see Gran Torino you would understand) if its destroying our personal (and i do mean personal) space. But what one must do - despite that - its not to tolerate, or meld, or objectify or multicultrise the whole fucking enterprise - no - its time to LEARN for the first time in these petty lives we live as Americans what THEY (what ever stereotype you want to place on people) ARE, by learning what they ARE NOT!

Because Japan isn’t the magical dark world (or light based) of big chested chicks and hard-nosed fighters doesn’t mean everything else they write is sacronant.

Just because you think women are out there just to make babies and have nice pretty orgasms doesn’t make it so.

Just because Hulu wants to become the new bigger and better Shockwave Films, with some aspects of stage6 and thereby become the NEW home of all internet entertainment doesn’t fucking mean its going to be so!

And every damn time - we as men any men who give a fuck - have something we like to see or do - some old ignorant envious bastard with money wether its from washington or huluwood hills tries to muck that shit up by promoting HIS own shit that we know its fake and has no truth and if he doesnt win that way, he pass laws to stop it and if that dont work then he tries to buy it off and create new work and say “we dont need you stinking blue collar sons of bitches here - this for the kiddreen…” and when he FAILS again he breaks the industry in a million pieces, because he doesn’t have a fucking SOUL and he don’t want you to have one! They will KILL every motherfucker that gave a damn about telling the truth to men just to make them weak and when he sends old men to tell us to become and do like all the other good robots do - we close our ears for good reason.

Its like I have stated before way way way back- I do this for those who wish to hear. If they dont want to they can go to Crunchyroll and shove their 4chan dildo up there slavish asses, I give a fuck less. We need to take lessons on how to show kids the right way - if the NFL and the sporting world can do it why cant huluwood? Oh wait thats not in their interests…

To me, This Hulu advertisment shows what they really feel about this business. Its a damn shame - but im not worried because as long as somebody with a soul still can draw and animate and write his/her story like Corline, or Persoplis or Wall-E, and in the hands of people like Al Kahn Animation will never be in the control of these sons of bitches who have no idea that they just outed themselves as nothing more than the creators of the Generic, feminisised bs American Life style we stopped caring for the day we realized Tupac, Biggie and Cobain was dead and in their place came Brittany Spears…

So Miss Lynn Toler, yes. Its dead. You can cry but not at the black man nor the white or the hispanic, asian, first nation or jew. Cry because we cant do nothing because we have NOTHING left to fight for. We are political criminals in our own Nation because we bought something in Japan and send to the gallows for “some one elses protection” when we did nothing to anybody! They send us to war for reasons i dont want to mention here - and when we come back, our brains are screwed up and nothing can save us. We are being railroaded by taxes, no bailout for us - and now we got to deal with this wii contraption with huluwood loves but we cannot stand.

That advertisement represents everything that has gone wrong in huluwood. They are fucking aliens. Because I dont see why the hell The Dark Knight gets shafted even the Wrestler was shafted - but something called slumdog millionare gets awarded and rewarded? I dont see how a story about a woman who ate too much during the Holidays is major news, I dont see why from Batman Beyond, Gargoyles, Astro Boy, and many other shows before we had talented writers and producers who can talk the alien executive language got canned for no reason but just like Liberal boy stated - they ended these shows, almost destroyed Saturday Morning and made a mockery of the American dubbing industry in turn too make our brains into mush by looking at Paris Hilton and her petty problems, or what he did or she did and what there wearing and what have you. Its a fucking tragedy. They show you what they think of all of us, and if we continue fighting each other, not changing our individual behaviors - they will continue to down play what makes us human and they will truly have won.

Forget the actual device of the TV, that was never the problem - the day somebody else could use the TV for something else than those three channels was the day they started all this about sex and violence and tried to control it. And in some ways they won, and in some ways they didn’t. But this ad is bigger than what you think it is, and its high damn time that they need to get called out for it. Hulu is another ponzi scheme from people who are not business men but social engineers, just like Crunchyroll. If you want to see real change - look what stage6 has done and what Gametrailers continues to do.

Hulu and the majority of huluwood are tools. Nothing more and nothing less and I will be the first one here, the day hulu shuts down for good laughing my ass off in joy.

Novid - The Eyes of a Lost Truth...
I know I haven't been here for a while. I had to think about things these days.

And the toughest thing in life one must face is to see the world as it is.

There is a person here in shadowness, who I am enamored with. I only talked to her once or twice earlier in the year. I think she is wonder and joy in a world filled of utter darkness.

But something is nagging me in the back of my mind. How do I go about saying it. How do I "compete" being 6'4, 225, darker skin... against those that are more handsome than I? How do I introduce myself? How can i deal with family who may never accept me and even if I am accepted, how would she be accepted by my own?

Maybe its not about acceptance but more about do we have interests? Our likes and dislikes? Would we take the taunting from those who think they have better answers for us if there is an "us"?

Yes, I have every right to be scared. Because i reached a point in life where its now or never again...

Have you ever cared for someone that you wanted to be with that person for the long term, maybe a whole life time ... impurities and all? I had. Twice. I don't want to lose another chance.

I have looked and looking isn't enough. I have seen but seeing is not believing. I want to do more in life... but it seems that its hard not wondering and knowing if some one with wiser eyes, softer hands, greater will, wondrous heart would come into life and shake the foundations of the cynicism that makes my life hard to bear.

But maybe life isn't for the easy way out. Maybe all life is are a bunch of what if's never realized. I just want to know if this what if... is to become right now.

How can i reach her...

How can i grasp the will to wake up and do something to change these circumstances?

Maybe its too late...

Maybe its all for nothing...

But then again - let me try. If nothing else - to confirm what is known or to go ahead and make what if, right now...

Novid - Mankind on the Crossroads.
This is mostly about Prop 8, and the whole issues around it.

Take it from me - I care less. The world has have had these people existing long before this issue came about and will exist after this issue continues to distract from mankind's real goal in my opinion - his loyalty of itself only or of its love of a God and himself only.

I have come to the conclusion that human love in its forms, is nothing more than a construct in order for the production of more human beings. For the construct to work, those in the powers that be created Marriage as first a business contract, then as contract for the transfer of wealth of material possessions, which children are of a part of - and as a way to control and contract life force unless something or someone threatens the structure the marriage created.

Romantic Love belongs in the hands of the book makers and writers of the TV, the Broadway, the anime... It is not and cannot exist in the reality of human life.

Prop 8 - for better or worse - is the death nell of the concept not just for those who are homosexual (and those that support them) but the same to the heterosexual (and those that supported them). They are controlled by those that create distractions from the real issue of humanity, our spiritual makeup - and the aspect that if one doesn't have loyalty to ones self, why would he be loyal to the one he "loves" or "cares" for.

We have to get this really clear - so everybody knows. How come the white evangelicals, the black evangelicals, most Christians, many Orthodox Jews, and if not all of Mohammedism (Islam) all agree that Gays are bad news, but cannot - and will not solve the problem in Palestine? Its all or nothing when it comes to THIS issue, but why is it half truths, half falsities with Palestine? They can agree on this issue and NOT on how to fix the world economic situation (the religions agree on this, but not the leaders of the countries)

There is a thing I sense when I hear both sides of the argument - Mike Savage and Keith Obermann. Before i get to what my side of the argument is, let me get to the real deal - when i heard Savage - i got a rise out of his argument - the one of ego based rage - too many good black men gay or on the down low where there are too many black women festering getting fat on food... when i heard Obermanns, i got the id side of emotional sadness - how my friend suffered in his life dealing with his homosexuality and the love that wasnt allowed even now, between those of another race and to those of other sexes.

But then i realize that its all a game. All the protest on both sides - to keep the status quo. Im tired of it.

I realize that there is a certain people who will never grow and never change. I say let them stay that way. There is nothing to gain.

I realize there are certain people who want to keep changing. Let them change. There is nothing to gain from too much change anyway.

What the real truth is that I never understood love when I was 6 years old when I had my first Girlfriend (and only one) Its been 20 years of heartbreak, vanity and the like since then.

Why does one need to be married in order to prove anything?

Why does one need to live in there biases to state what it is, is?

Its because man is split from his inner nature. Thats what it is.

He refuses to see his dark side and his darker nature.

He Marries in order to run away from his self and the reality of existence and have children (now of days anyway) because both partners are tired of oneself. A man could love his turkey, his wine, or even his video games with the greatest love and the greatest care one has ever seen, and he will never love his wife or his symbiotic partner as much as those possessions.

So its time to give this all up.

Its been long since time for the movement to end.

Lets put it this way - create places for people to live in. Im not saying separate jobs or this that or what have you. I'm saying that if people want to get married and they feel as though they don't want to stay in a place that doesn't have there best interests at heart - then move to a place that does. That goes for those that feel that the country isn't working for you or you want to be where One Piece is a success or what have you. It might be running away from the problem, but is that problem so big your willing to do such a thing? To live in your biases? If thats all you know and all you will know? Thats fine with me, i don't care.

Lets end this marriage issue - say what you want, give the voters the vote and let it not be overturned for another 20 years. Let it begin, if marriage is between those that can breed, say so. If its between those of like races, say so. I don't give a fuck and it will not change my life anyway.

Why is humanity so hung up on being scared of being alone? What is with it and the darkness that one fears so much... are they scared of the voice that screams at them at night? Why do humanity fears to be alone?

Maybe, it is because we have been told that everything is better together, that the mass is greater than one and what have you. but that isn't true - you saw that with Obama. The needs of the many outweigh the needs of the few or the one. But when one is all that is need to change the world, because the need of the many are some of the most foolish, what then? Will one's need to be a individual be squashed because of the needs of the many?

I dont know about you - but i think that this whole issue is nothing more than about sex, and the lack or need of spirituality in it. I think is time to take it on the chin. Many people cant have a "relationship" only "sexual partners" and its been a LONG ass time - but its time to admit that fact. Man is still way too primitive to grasp concepts that only a few understand.

In my life - I haven't really seen or been a part of an "true relationship". Yes, my mom and my dad have been together for thirty years - but did they grow to "love" each other. In my opinion they grew to tolerate each other - and in if they were married in 2008 and not 1979 - toleration may be good for those 'in the life' but not good enough for the majority of marriages. Savage can say what he wants about how its good to have kids young, but i seen the damage my own self and while he can rail on those that are out of wedlock (since when wedding and lock connotes "slavery" since a lock is a part of a prison cuff or chain?) He cannot say it both ways. But since he has a successful family with a multi billionaire son - he can say what he wants.

And that what it comes down to again, money. This whole thing is about money. Not "love" nor "lack of love in this world". The Church (black, hispanic and white) is using the same birth to death economic model that is being used to destroy the middle class to destroy there "enemies". Because if they don't get money in there pews, they don't exist - and if the Gay Commune doesn't get a "stipend" for there "promotions" of "rights denied" they dont have power. In the end, the country loses.

Its time to split "love" from "sexual need" and "relationship" from "love" because one can be in a "relationship" and not be in "love". One can have a intimate conversation without being sexual or have it being sexualized. One need to become one with himself, loyal to himself or to the love of his God and loyalty to himself before he can do anything with other people. He can admire a woman or a man of he so choose, and even have "sexual relations" with the person, but he/she must learn to have a distance - so that person can have his own life to lead and the other has theirs. There is a time where you need to let go of your kids and let them live their lives. When the rest of humanity get this, we will have peace on this world.

But until then more Prop 8's will come, and more Prop 8's will fail. All because other people refuse to let others to live there own life's and try and find what they feel makes them "happy" in the miserable existence called life.

But there will be others that will live without wondering what vote will come down, what will do this or that, who will kill us next and what not. Those people are the freest of all. They dont need words to tell them what to do, people to tell them what to think, leaders to show them what is next. They dont need a vote.

All they needed was themselves and there attitude about life and they knowing what reality really is and how they responded to it.

Thats what all one needed, and will ever need in this world.

Novid - Election Primer: The New
The Election is over.

Obama has won in convincing fashion.

Mankind cheers and tears, but I do not.

I have seen this same man before - he's the same dude that got all the pretty girls in school, but in the end; they ended up pregnant.

This time, I will stand against of such men. Why? Why do you, Ronin is against one of your own.

One, He isn't one of my own. My own is the ones that have been disenfranchised for years on end. If that changes to those of a different color now - then I back them, and not yall.

But then again, I might be a soulless son of a bitch because I wasn't crying along with my "brothers" and "sisters" Let it be that way. I have to hide my soul away so men like these don't take it from me.

He cannot prove the sadness. He cannot control the anger, he will destroy everything that one side of his heritage built, and the other side never knew how to use.

If i have to be alone for the rest of my life to showcase how i feel, thats fine. But let it be known that Bush set up the disaster that is to come, so Obama could finally complete (to the chagrin of many blacks) the neo-left fascism that will come. Its not new nor left - its old and its dark.

I might be the only one to fight back, but let me be the Seeker of the Wizards First Rule... I wont use my fists - I will use my voice, my guitar, my words and my courage to state the obvious to the youth who has no idea of glory, no idea of honesty, no idea of truth and now no Idea of stewardship. YOUR GUILT against a person of another race doesn't exist. The only burden of proof - is the way you created your countrymen for the last 35 years. THATS the only GUILT I see.

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So now you want to enslave us with your claptrap - you will never get me... Remember - Im the guy in the high school that couldnt talk right? Who was in Special Needs and treated like a Kid? BUT NOW you think you have the whole world in your shoulders? WRONG...

I fight back. Until my life is at a end. You Liberals are people of the lie - and I will continue to say this until you realize it - You will be sorry. I promise you that.

As the world goes crazy - I will stay sane. I will stay awake. Then when the time is right - The opening salvo of brining back mankind from the brink of darkness starts. This is bigger than a country, this is the whole world at the brink of madness beyond all comprehension. And I will not run away. Even if others do from me.

This is bigger than you. This is much bigger than anything you can deal with. But It will be bitter pill to swallow if all those tears turn to blood. And it just might happen. We are in the countdown to destruction and you can hear the symphony... Because the blood is in the world's hands...

All there is left to do - against the people that lost the will, and refuse to live -

[b] IS TO FIGHT BACK... [/b]

Thats all there is left to do.

Novid - The Mythos...
(Original Work Done by Red Ice Creations)

A long time ago, there was a man who didn't want to live in this world of killing and Fighting anymore.

Fully Convinced, That mankind would improve and become more peaceful during its evolution and being a man of genius...

He Built a machine that would enable him to sleep as in death...

100 years later, the machine was supposed to wake him, at which time he would find a better world, one that would be worth living in.

100 years, passed.

The Machine woke the man, but although everything had changed, mankind had not. So the man returned to his machine and kept returning to it, until the 32nd time, where he awoke to find, that there was no more life on earth...

There was no bird in the sky...

No Fish in the Sea...

No Tree

and no Flower.

Man had killed all the plants, all the animals, and at last even himself.

Leaving the earth a dead ball in the universe...

Seeing this, the Man sat down on the bleak ground...

And Tears ran down his cheeks...

His Lungs Inhaled the deadly air...

And darkness closed all around him, as he followed all the others -

To a place of no fighting and no killing

No Grief , nor envy, nor sorrow...

Would you like to know the name of this place?

Its called Eternity...

And the only gate you must past through to enter it...

The one which separates life and death....

Novid - Election Primer: 8 Days...
To what - is the great question of the day.

There seems to be a undercurrent going down. Obama is being targeted. McCain is losing steam. Obama is "hiding things" - McCain is "being snippy" Even Rush is stating that Obama might be hiding his true identity - reasons being that an Obama presidency will bring back the fairness doctrine, killing his business. That is much more of a legit concern.

But, folks - I tell you this much. 8 days - and nearly two years of campaigning, and they still will not talk about the big, blinding bloody light staring down at us.

Im talking about the wars. The damage has been done. For Good or Ill. The sad thing about this is that nobody wants to talk about it any more.

I have a feeling that this war didn't really start for oil. 9/11 was one of the major causes we started this. But the other major cause is something that went LONG before 9/11 started.

When I was in high school - I got the sense that most of the friends I knew were doing things that were beyond the pale. (4Chan has NOTHING, and I MEAN NOTHING on what really when down in George Washington High back in 1997 - 1999.) I also got the sense that there was a second undercurrent - a semi-fascistic and almost psychological racism building. Even though I was taught to respect and even like other people of different colors, when put into action - it always came back to the same split dichotomy.

A old man once told me that "you young people know that your more split than it was back then" I thought it was more of a "get out my lawn" moment - but then looking at it more closely it wasn't. Lunch was split between those that had and those that havent - the races, the goths and the preps. As much as the adults tried and tried to promote multicultural ideology - the more split we became.

And something festered. It started to grow - then what came out of that festering was Bush - was it that the country was scared of things that were out of there control? Then 9/11 happened and there began humanities great travail into a place where nothing is real and everything and word is used as a ploy for control.

This festering is now out of control. But its on the other side now. And these two festering sides are pulling the mass - no - the individual man or woman in to one side of the argument - for the promise of security, freedom to express, freedom to think and so on.

Well, I saw both sides. There nothing more than feuding brothers or sisters being taken for fools by those they want to become, the rich, the powerful - the soulless minions who would steal the hard earn work from there hands and kill them in sight if they had a chance for there betterment.

There is a reason why Gossip Girl succeeds - sure its pretty people with problems - but its a look at the future holders of the estate of the United States, while the story of the Ghettos remains untold - only through the eyes of old women who no ideas and no power. The men who have the will to live, were not given to freedom to live - the freedom to be men - and the only way they could have the two point five kids, the pretty wife and the nice house - was to spend millions of dollars for schooling - all to get back minimal wage work for the next 15 years. And yet the schooling sucks because they dont educate you (Unless in a Art school or a Tech school or something close to that) they indoctrinate you with all sorts of ideas that go against your own SOUL and own SELFHOOD. Go and see Temple University or How About Yuppie-Town, (Seattle) Washington where they talk about Obama as the new hope - BUT HAVE NEVER EVER BEFORE TALKED TO ANYBODY OUTSIDE of there "liberal" culture.

Who then is more dangerous? Answer - were in deep trouble regardless.

For me, until things change voting isn't going to change a damn thing. Im still black. Im still stuck in a town (for the time being) that is nearing lockdown mode because of the issues with the cops, Im still single, the job isn't paying enough - I like this one person but dont know how to approach her - or even if I should try - I still want things but dont have the money for it - I worry about Iraq all the time, Im still disgusted on how Jessie was treated by Customs over in New York (all in the name of protecting the CORPORATIONS? IS THAT YOUR EXCUSE NOW TSA? YOU HAVE SO MANY TERRORISTS WAITING IN THE WINGS WAITING TO STRIKE FROM (SOME) MEXICANS THAT GO UP HERE NOT TO WORK BUT TO HURT MY BROTHERS AND SISTERS, TO THOSE WHO WANT TO KILL US (BUT WE CANT MENTION THEM BY NAME) BUT YOU GO AFTER A ARTIST OVER COPYRIGHT INFRINGEMENT? WTF IS THAT FOR?) and this election never talked about the issues.

We will have tough times ahead. We cant run away from them. Are we going to at least learn to talk just a few words to each other or are we gonna shoot first and ask questions later? No Obama speech is gonna change the mind of a woman who only cares about the "Lord". No McCain speech will change the mind of the yuppies over at Seattle or NYC - We are more split than we ever realized.

All because every damn adult tried for all of us to get along.

Well, fancy that - It failed.

Maybe the adults should have taken the advice of there perverted uncles.

The only way anybody ever got together, was in bed.

And that why my friends,

We will become the people that refused to live.

Novid - Drowning In The Abyss
Only Mankind could create great nations...
And have no will to keep it afloat.

Only mankind can create such beauty
To see it violated mercilessly like wild dogs.

Only mankind could in his last gasp of air
Make one final wish
Of something nonsensical...

Such creatures have no capability nor the capacity
to render its self free.

The abyss may have been our only truth...
And may have been our only home.

This planet is a jail cell, full of convicts.
Ready to go insane in a moments notice

Meant to wander aimlessly around the earth
Meant to die before even birthed.

All this on this bleak ground...
Dying babies, blood soaked men bleeding from there mouths
The women drowning in the sandy mound.

This is the end of it all
all of the fighting and all of the killing
all of the grief, envy and sorrow.

You know how we reached here?

We reached here because we were afraid to experience love...
all we had given was the aspect of lust.
We reached here because we were to dumb to understand trust
all we have given was the aspect of darkness.
We created machines to go the the moon
but not away to give men true freedom
We created millions of stories
but not one man read them to change himself.
And all we did - was to lust with our vanity
destroy others with our insanity
Give our sovereignty away to the insane
In order to continue the same vain ways.

What have we become as we enter the abyss?
The people that lost the will to live
At the edge of the road to hell.
We were given the truth
but we became webots and blinded three hundred and sixty ways
to nothing.
We have become, the toothless, souless demons of perfidy
too dead for the maggots to eat
and too stale for the carrion to feast

What is the only way out of this?
It is called eternity
and the only way to enter this
is the one gate
to the area
between life
and death...