Novid - FireBrand
One of my Radio Shows Im Planning - and the logo for it -

Novid - Doga Queen (Semi Final)
I didnt get a Good Logo for one section of my site but this is pretty close:

Novid - Cartoon Electro
The New Site, Bring back the Bite in Animation and Cartoons - Its the Jolt you miss when you see the funny bit to the flashing eye.

Novid - Toon Angel
This is Toon Angel... The North American side of the Industry. Some forget, but I havent

Novid - VQueen 2
This is another version of VQueen...

Novid - Doga Queen
Doga Queen Is Something about the beauty of the artform...But there are some rules in order to keep it clean...

Novid - VQueen
A future anime section of Garou Gothic... This will hopfully end some of the lies and misconseptions...

Novid - Playstation Zigest
This is for a future section of Garou Gothic, its for the the Playstation Family of Products...and the games....

Novid - The Logo
Something I Did Back some time ago with Cs3 - Some work needs to be done but Im a little crushed for time...

7Shadows Yes, welcome back.

Tricks Welcome back mate :D

Novid - The World Broken Apart
I have fought so long to have the world view of America.

To be Conservative and raise my children in a good Christian household.

To have freedom to drive any car I want...

To say what I feel about certain things about how silly our petty problems are in the whole scheme of things.

But now I cant say these things.

I cant have these things...

I cant be with the one i know...

The world has finally got me where they wanted me...

Broken, destroyed, a boot stomping on the face of humanity forever.

The world has got me where they want me.

Between Sin and Insanity...

What to do when you have nothing but sweet demon sickness dripping in the mouths of most every girl in the Ghettos of this country...

And the Insanity of our leaders, spending, spending and spending us into a deep morass, waiting to pass laws making us political prisoners...

They haven't taken the last things that make us human, but then again they just about to...

They delay the game that had to end.

They wait until things seem to bend the wrong way from them...

Then its over...they take it away.

Create this robotronic generic humanoid and call it human...

They sing the death rattles, they make things not what they seem.

They lie to our faces and now...

Im looking to the world through the stars and wonder why, why cant I.

I smell the zombie rain... patting the same way, making the Earth grow hotter...

Making humanity into a animal in heat, taking the souls away of the innocent. Nothing will stop them, nothing will satficy them until they kill the victim and themselves in a orgy of blood, sinew and seed...

The hearts of men grow cold as they steal your money...your votes (American Idol too) and they eat cake as the Occident (The name of the western world) burns in pieces.

Now they have stolen from me. The only way to have a life. The only way to have freedom they stole it years ago and I cant get it back... broken in and now no more... no more perfect. No more diamond...

Just like the rest of humanity.

What if it was all for nought? What then?

Will I have the strength to build my self up again? Face the world again?

I feel its too late...

I feel that the ghetto has become the whole world...

I cant get out of the death, the pain the whole nonsense...

I don't want to be generic.

I want to be free.

But I cant have that because my mind is stuck of having that wife, those kids that house our life's that future...

Now it will never happen...

Im breaking down into the pieces i was just 8 years ago. It's like nothing has changed...

I wonder...

How long before the dark world that I saw becomes the reality that the world is forcing me to enter...

There is nothing left - theres no truth...unless its from them...

But maybe... There is something inside of me... something that never went away...but I kept it hidden...

Maybe the monster in my heart that I feared all this time...

Was the only thing that will get me out of this hell created by sicker men and even sicker Governments.

Maybe the only way to get what I want...

Its to unleash my heart of chaos...

For if the world has denied me my hope of a brighter future for me...

I will bring the world that takes and takes and takes and never gives back to its knees.

I'm in the shadowness...

And Im against the world...

For my child's blood is in the worlds hands.

The people of the lie... and refused to live...

I will let them die in their insanity...

For they let me die in there filth...

All I wanted was to be a husband to a wife that carried herself like royalty...

All the world will get from me, is my fist in your lies and deceit.

For my word's are the Death Note...

And your reactions will be the Symphony Of Destruction...

Novid - Rebirth In the Time of Death
(Note, Picture is done by Giovanni Rubaltell and is called Rebirth (a preisous name or smile)

So, I hear that 8 is on its way.

I am happy to hear this. While others are too busy hanging on to past glories, things hear keep changing for the better.

I say about rebirth is to go ahead for it. Many people are scared because of it. I say its a long time coming.

People worry too much about certain things that they cannot control. And they things they do? Others muck up the message that was trying to be conveyed.

Years ago, I was here. Talking about things that needed to make sense. Today I know three things are going down.

One, we were never allowed to grow (not up because Growing Up is something we did way earlier in life and was forced upon us).

Two, our connections to the past are being ripped to shreds wether from animation, to sports and the like. And that leaves the present ever more important but even that is a misnomer because we have been taught never to live in the present and it takes a good long while to do so...

Three is that we are left in a world (or at least a nation or nations) with people too primal and animalistic (read as using laws to cover unjust acts and lawbreaking when it comes to overall society) that when even a simple act of complaint turns into a joke to some, a worry to others and plan to turn over sociality into the whims of what did "work in the past" from the people who are making the complaints.

All this leads into leading the culture to the debasement of Miss Cyrus (which Mr Foxx was correct in his assertions but incorrect in how he went about saying such things, forcing him to apologize and retracting what ever he said was true) and the Generic Life Style that both the left and the right want for this country.

But what they both do not get is that same Generic Life Style, lead into the disasters of Katrina/Gulf Coast and Iowa, The Housing/Derivatives Bubble of 2007/2008 and the mishandling of recruitment, tactics, and exception of the conflicts/Police Action of Iraq and Afghanistan. Because the mainstream media did not do their jobs (or at least tried to) when it came to the latter, the hid the real tragedies of both Katrina and didn't even talk about Iowa City - it was only a matter of time before they would mishandle the economic situation on all sides not just left or right.

This site isn't about that Generic Life Style. There are rules yes. There has to be. But this place isnt about why this celeb got dumped, court orders and all those things the industry worries about.

It is showing the mirror of life. And many times this decade, that mirror wasn't pretty at all. Remember, I was a reviewer(somewhat) here during the 6th version of Shadowness and I enjoyed it. I felt I was actually good at it. If i get the chance to do it again on the 8th version Ill jump at the chance. I wasn't here to belittle people. I felt that I was doing was Jerry Beck and Amid Amidi was doing on a smaller scale - teaching and showcasing what works. Granted, I haven't been on the photoshop/illustrator game in a while (and BOY, a lot has changed.) but i'm thinking I have to do more with it.

Because i feel its is time to go back to doing the web-mastering thing again with Garou Gothic, and this time around Im not letting up.

My biggest problem is the cash issue. Do i really want to spend thousands of bucks for my dream? Because my dream is that this new version of GG will put the Journal Ideas, the cartoon electro site, the two new ideas i have plus a new radio show and video/Blu-Ray journals as well as the books im writing into this one site. Sounds big? It has to be. But that doesn't mean I leave here. I never left even when the site was down. Its not me to leave something that has kept me grounded for so long. Other people do, but that was never me. Im hear for the long haul regardless of Garou Gothic comes back or not.

But GG has to come back. Because I cant stay idle despite how bad the economic situation is getting. There is a DEEP hole created by the end of Toonami - the end of CN (as we knew it) the Anime Correction the Crunchyroll pirate situ and the lack of coverage (common, Cartoon Brew and the HUNDREDS of animation blogs and countless twitters, cant do it all) of the american art and animation world that it needs to come back. I dont think Toonzone will ever do the job I used to do.

I dont think that John K will ever get respected in the Media as much has Seth MacFarline is (yes, even Fox Loves him more than Joss and Seth has almost sued Fox twice) and the way its going it would be a smart idea to get a feel for Latin America (some sites dont even talk about it because its OMG Soclisim and what not) Animation world view.

But I have ideas as well. I think is time for a compeiter to do something between Streamline Pictures and 4Kids - take the very good and leave the "bad" that will promote american content as well, that will work within the TV business - something that knows what it does and does it well. Uses Blu-Ray as a sticking point. Folks it can happen even in bad times. Great things have happen in bad times. That is the promise of what a nation like this produces. If we take the risk now, years later things will get on track and you will see things that you cant imagine.

But things start here. In this place. What needs to continue of the spirit of rebellion. And not the ones that wants a President dead, or a race of people to be destroyed over there "daughters" protection or all sorts of sillyness. No, its to show those who wish not to lose their souls, not to lose their connection to the past...

That you are NOT the person that wants to make the Earth into a Dead Ball In the Universe.

That YOU are NOT the person that LOST the WILL TO LIVE like others have...

That you will at the very least give the common curtacy to let people be no matter what defensive or other hatred you have against their skin, or sex legitimate or otherwise.

At least we can at peace with the works of these fine artists. At least we can look at these works and say humanity isn't that far gone.

Thats all one asks in this "dying" civilization. That at least we can grow and mature when the rest of the world doesnt want to.

Novid - Goddess of the Dark World, and their minions
Note: This was originally posted by a Michael Goodspeed on his blog. But it was one of his best essays i wanted to post it here: (Original Title is called Classroom Sex, The Goddess and Her Devotees)

[i]Authors note: The following essay features frank and adult language. Please do not presume to know my intentions without careful and sober consideration. Your discretion is advised.

The other day, I was watching one of those TV shows that's done in the style and format of a news broadcast. I refuse to call it news, because despite the best efforts of the Hearst Corporation, Time Warner and Rupert Murdoch, in my mind that word still connotes something truer and more dignified than militaristic propaganda or salacious entertainment. Instead I'll call what it was -- a spiffy 60-minute production that produced in me an erection and the firm conviction that I require at least three more prescription drugs in order to continue walking and breathing.

Some grinning blockhead named Matt Lauer was interviewing a woman named Debra Lafave, a drop-dead "hittable" blond high school teacher with the rack of Jane Russell and the lips of Marilyn Monroe. She looked and sounded almost identical to another woman who appeared on the show, Paris Hilton. Something else they had in common -- they had both recently been convicted of crimes. Lafave pleaded guilty to having sex with a 14-year old student. While Hilton was convicted of being Paris Hilton -- a personification that entails constant drunkenness, insatiable nymphomania, and every imaginable form of social irresponsibility.

Even though Hilton enjoys the privileged benefits of personal trainers, manicurists, and every other perquisite of the rich and abominable, I found Lafave more attractive than Hilton in every way imaginable. And I'm not alone in my feelings; Lafave is a goddess in the eyes of venereal males everywhere. And her behavior is part of a trend in the United States -- female teachers who are married or single, ugly or pretty, fat or thin, childless or parental screwing their male students seven ways from Sunday.

Glorified game-show hosts like Matt Lauer pretend to be mystified as to why this trend is occurring. But there are no mysteries here. There is only either the honesty and willingness to see, or the determination to remain blind.

The average woman reaches the apex of her sexual ripeness at the age of 43. Her libido increases for decades after puberty, along with her overall sensuousness and pleasure-giving abilities. She improves like a fine wine, until she peaks, and slowly declines. For males, sexual maturation is more like a Mexican firework -- it explodes spectacularly and kills dozens of bystanders, then immediately flares out and begins to die. But it takes forever to die; it just sits there stupidly burning and billowing smoke.

Everyday all around the world millions of blue-balled teenage boys sit trapped in classrooms with eminently desirable and blazingly horny schoolmarms. What lunatic social engineer contrived to place these volatile compounds in such dangerous proximity to one another? Imagine the relief both parties must feel when the fires of their loins are briefly extinguished in the blessed aftermath of a sexual explosion.

We grown men hear of Debra LeFavre and countless others like her, and we have no choice but to flee to the bathroom and frantically masturbate. We can't help but imagine what it would have been like to have been that boy. In a way, it's reverse pedophilia. We think, Yes teacher, please defile me in the most exquisitely satanic and bestial manner. When we hear of male teachers having sex with female students, we might fantasize about that too. But sometimes we have the decency to feel guilty about it. Not because society tells us to, but because the vicarious roles have been reversed. And we imagine how we would feel if some ignominious fiend like ourselves had laid his hands on our daughter or granddaughter. Is this hypocrisy? I don't know, but I do know, like all male beasts, that I wish I had had a teacher precisely like Debra Lafave when I was 14.

When Debra Lafave walked the floors of her classroom, she felt the lascivious eyes of every pubescent young man, these eyes burning her flesh and caressing her clit. She was beautiful and she knew it. And she felt her power over her students, even more than the power of a dominatrix over a submissive. But the power of a goddess. She was more than Paris Hilton, or Angelina Jolie, or any of those soulless, silicone beasts that have come to permeate our entire lives. She was Aphrodite. And her blazing mane was her wet and inflamed cunt. Its flames danced and teased at the heads of all below her. And for one chosen -- and many would say lucky young man -- the conflagration enveloped him, perhaps coming close to incinerating his being. But in all likelihood, doing him no harm.

But this is not to say that Lafave's actions were more right than wrong or more sane than insane. Even if we dismiss all moralistic interpretations of grown women having sex with pubescent males, the fact remains that the female pedophile's motivations and desires are similar to those of the male pedophile. They're not looking for relationships based on mutual love, affection, and equal responsibility. A pedophile has no more interest in those things than a bloodsucking vampire. What the pedophile seeks is the godlike thrill that comes from controlling, enslaving, and even destroying another human being.

We are a generation of men who are programmed to worship at the altars of porcelain mannequins and inflatable sex dolls. Little girls in the United States are instantly aware of this perverse, collective idolatry by male beasts. They sense the energy field coursing through the air around their skin. And they know that in order to absorb this stream, they must become ideal capacitors for its electromagnetic frequencies. This means transforming themselves into objects of worship and obsession. Billions of human beings pray to the very gods before whom they tremble in fear and want and pitiful desperate aching privation. One need not love a god in order to hand one's soul to it.

Debra Lafave's husband may have loved her, but he did not worship her. She could never arouse in him the wonders of terror and joyousness and transcendent excitation that she so easily evoked in her teenage lover. And the taboo of it all only made it more enticing. No one who has inherited the power of a god can easily walk away from it. Power is more addictive than love. Because it, like a drug, inflates and elevates us into strange and unpredictable stratospheres, but can never keep us permanently afloat. It can never provide any lasting satisfaction.

This is not a simple matter of predator vs. prey, or evil vs. good. We live in a society of revoked and disempowered human beings. No real control over our lives, at least not in any sense that matters. No control of our government, or any of the institutions that shape the direction of the culture. Limited ability to truly make life better for ourselves, and our loved ones. In the absence of genuine personal power, human beings are reduced to begging animals. And the idol to whom they beg is either an external god, or the god of their own egos. And neither can ever succeed in giving them what they really want.

Debra Lafave wanted to be Aphrodite, or at least Paris Hilton. Instead, she'll have to settle for being Debra Lafave -- similar to so many other 21st century Americans in ways that hurt and maim. Social deviants and outcasts with no families or careers or even a country to call their own.[/i]

Novid - Broken Souls, Not Allowed.
Folks, I know i haven't been here in a while but I just want to take some time and speak about what has been going on these days.

If you haven't read my new series called: "The Era Of The Lost and Generic" i suggest you do. Its something I have had in my head for years now. Its finally here so read it if you can get the chance.

I dont think people really understand what is going on, but let me make it clear. People have continued to deny to themselves something was wrong. The thing is that no one has had the will nor the ideas to deal with it. Its easy (well mostly easy) to get all the tools for "survival". Guns, Food, Bibles the whole lot.

But what I been seeing is that the America that thought it was America and acted like it was America, is soon heading to pass and it will not have happy ending.

I feel as though people might just go plum insane. My sister has. Not to get too deep into it but boy... it has been a difficult three days.

But isn't strange? That most of us are psychologically childish and those that are not are told that they don't belong in Society. Its almost a sight to behold - an art form to some dark mirror that most don't want to deal with.

Explain to me when one suggested to rest the mind, they think 2 week vacation instead of 15 - 30 min of staying still and not doing a damn thing? Humanity has a lot to account for, and a lot to fix and all it wants to do is to escape to what? Huluwood? Musak? WII would like to play?

The sadness that our generation has seen is now being paid in full. We could lose everything we hold dear.

All because we didn't allow the broken soul to speak.

The People that Lost the Will to Live, made it so. And thats why we are heading to the place where, The earth will be...

A Dead Ball in the Universe.

Novid - Hulu Blows Even More
Originally Posted on Cartoon Electro...

Hulu, you were a hot mess before, now your a hotter tranny mess.

That was not a good message to send. Using the Alien motif? Shrinking your brains? Lord.

And the fact that shill boy of the liberals 2000 cant act for shit…and all of the blatant symbolism? You take me for some idiots?

Its almost like people like us folk are being ripped to shreds. This particular Hulu advertisement is pretty much saying - be generic, we are about to control everything…

So its not just Crunchyroll that reeks, its now its Mainstream counterpart Hulu… One industry is going to suffer so it can succeed in a lifeless amorous blob called the Internet?

Heh. I deal with these idiots all the damn time. And you wonder why, why they are aiming for the Video Game industry.

Its so easy to do a simple advertisement, just look at cars.com and the like.

These are the reasons why I dislike the media. They promote the way the Japanese promote in this modern era - they are in cahoots with each other and if you dont believe me look how they treated Sarah Palin (even though I don’t like her personally) and how the almost through there own sheer will railroaded Obama in (see The View Interview with John Zigler) In which he may have become President on his own merit without the medias help…

So folks, there’s the reason why Hulu now really really sucks. Its just like Crunchyroll is for the weeboos, a grave site for the mass culture.

I was looking at an episode of Divorce Court - the last few min and Judge Toler stated something that just stuck with me. There is no such thing as manhood anymore because everything that is considered to be about manhood in this era is destructive and she wonders if its over.

Miss Toler, in my opinion it has been over since the days of the e/i act, since the days before all this. You cannot have a society that is based on hyprocey on all levels and all sides before it falls and topples upon themselves.

You cannot, and you said you would not even try to solve the problem. That is the right answer because you cannot stop what is pretty much what hulu says what they are going to do - create a new mass culture just like Youtube and or Crunchyroll, who has no respect - no tact and no sense of MODERATION in ones life. To expand it a little further, there are certain men who cannot and possibly should not be married, you cannot force them to - you cannot arrange a marriage to make them give a damn about the woman or her kids. He will just do what he had continued to do, damn the law, damn everyone else - except the culture that BROUGHT that particular person up. That is his realm of influence.

You know what, It doesn’t matter because i cant stop them from getting females pregnant out of wedlock, and having a society already anti-human (read as anti-feminine or female) putting even more phycological damage on females already damage from the huluwood/crunchyroll/youtube media. I cant stop them from being fools. I cant stop my sister dating some guy who isnt trustworthy.

No, i let them be. Because its better to watch what they do - and how they self-mutilate themselves over nonsense. And to take the point further - We don’t have to tolerate a god damn thing (if you see Gran Torino you would understand) if its destroying our personal (and i do mean personal) space. But what one must do - despite that - its not to tolerate, or meld, or objectify or multicultrise the whole fucking enterprise - no - its time to LEARN for the first time in these petty lives we live as Americans what THEY (what ever stereotype you want to place on people) ARE, by learning what they ARE NOT!

Because Japan isn’t the magical dark world (or light based) of big chested chicks and hard-nosed fighters doesn’t mean everything else they write is sacronant.

Just because you think women are out there just to make babies and have nice pretty orgasms doesn’t make it so.

Just because Hulu wants to become the new bigger and better Shockwave Films, with some aspects of stage6 and thereby become the NEW home of all internet entertainment doesn’t fucking mean its going to be so!

And every damn time - we as men any men who give a fuck - have something we like to see or do - some old ignorant envious bastard with money wether its from washington or huluwood hills tries to muck that shit up by promoting HIS own shit that we know its fake and has no truth and if he doesnt win that way, he pass laws to stop it and if that dont work then he tries to buy it off and create new work and say “we dont need you stinking blue collar sons of bitches here - this for the kiddreen…” and when he FAILS again he breaks the industry in a million pieces, because he doesn’t have a fucking SOUL and he don’t want you to have one! They will KILL every motherfucker that gave a damn about telling the truth to men just to make them weak and when he sends old men to tell us to become and do like all the other good robots do - we close our ears for good reason.

Its like I have stated before way way way back- I do this for those who wish to hear. If they dont want to they can go to Crunchyroll and shove their 4chan dildo up there slavish asses, I give a fuck less. We need to take lessons on how to show kids the right way - if the NFL and the sporting world can do it why cant huluwood? Oh wait thats not in their interests…

To me, This Hulu advertisment shows what they really feel about this business. Its a damn shame - but im not worried because as long as somebody with a soul still can draw and animate and write his/her story like Corline, or Persoplis or Wall-E, and in the hands of people like Al Kahn Animation will never be in the control of these sons of bitches who have no idea that they just outed themselves as nothing more than the creators of the Generic, feminisised bs American Life style we stopped caring for the day we realized Tupac, Biggie and Cobain was dead and in their place came Brittany Spears…

So Miss Lynn Toler, yes. Its dead. You can cry but not at the black man nor the white or the hispanic, asian, first nation or jew. Cry because we cant do nothing because we have NOTHING left to fight for. We are political criminals in our own Nation because we bought something in Japan and send to the gallows for “some one elses protection” when we did nothing to anybody! They send us to war for reasons i dont want to mention here - and when we come back, our brains are screwed up and nothing can save us. We are being railroaded by taxes, no bailout for us - and now we got to deal with this wii contraption with huluwood loves but we cannot stand.

That advertisement represents everything that has gone wrong in huluwood. They are fucking aliens. Because I dont see why the hell The Dark Knight gets shafted even the Wrestler was shafted - but something called slumdog millionare gets awarded and rewarded? I dont see how a story about a woman who ate too much during the Holidays is major news, I dont see why from Batman Beyond, Gargoyles, Astro Boy, and many other shows before we had talented writers and producers who can talk the alien executive language got canned for no reason but just like Liberal boy stated - they ended these shows, almost destroyed Saturday Morning and made a mockery of the American dubbing industry in turn too make our brains into mush by looking at Paris Hilton and her petty problems, or what he did or she did and what there wearing and what have you. Its a fucking tragedy. They show you what they think of all of us, and if we continue fighting each other, not changing our individual behaviors - they will continue to down play what makes us human and they will truly have won.

Forget the actual device of the TV, that was never the problem - the day somebody else could use the TV for something else than those three channels was the day they started all this about sex and violence and tried to control it. And in some ways they won, and in some ways they didn’t. But this ad is bigger than what you think it is, and its high damn time that they need to get called out for it. Hulu is another ponzi scheme from people who are not business men but social engineers, just like Crunchyroll. If you want to see real change - look what stage6 has done and what Gametrailers continues to do.

Hulu and the majority of huluwood are tools. Nothing more and nothing less and I will be the first one here, the day hulu shuts down for good laughing my ass off in joy.

Novid - The Eyes of a Lost Truth...
I know I haven't been here for a while. I had to think about things these days.

And the toughest thing in life one must face is to see the world as it is.

There is a person here in shadowness, who I am enamored with. I only talked to her once or twice earlier in the year. I think she is wonder and joy in a world filled of utter darkness.

But something is nagging me in the back of my mind. How do I go about saying it. How do I "compete" being 6'4, 225, darker skin... against those that are more handsome than I? How do I introduce myself? How can i deal with family who may never accept me and even if I am accepted, how would she be accepted by my own?

Maybe its not about acceptance but more about do we have interests? Our likes and dislikes? Would we take the taunting from those who think they have better answers for us if there is an "us"?

Yes, I have every right to be scared. Because i reached a point in life where its now or never again...

Have you ever cared for someone that you wanted to be with that person for the long term, maybe a whole life time ... impurities and all? I had. Twice. I don't want to lose another chance.

I have looked and looking isn't enough. I have seen but seeing is not believing. I want to do more in life... but it seems that its hard not wondering and knowing if some one with wiser eyes, softer hands, greater will, wondrous heart would come into life and shake the foundations of the cynicism that makes my life hard to bear.

But maybe life isn't for the easy way out. Maybe all life is are a bunch of what if's never realized. I just want to know if this what if... is to become right now.

How can i reach her...

How can i grasp the will to wake up and do something to change these circumstances?

Maybe its too late...

Maybe its all for nothing...

But then again - let me try. If nothing else - to confirm what is known or to go ahead and make what if, right now...